Sunday, November 25, 2007
i was in and out of sleep the whole night. fighting the pills i took earlier, having thousand and one thoughts in my mind. i didnt know what i was doing, maybe waiting, but somehow, one thought repeatly appeared in my mind.
does it pays to be understanding?
what does being understanding means?
from what i gathered, it is to perceive the meaning of; grasp the idea of; comprehend. it could also means, to grasp the significance, implications, or importance of; also, to learn or hear; to accept as true; and more importantly,
to accpet tolerantly or sympathetically
"if you cant do it, I'll understand"
somehow being understanding is just like a facade, like wearing a mask. it gets tiring after awhile, and you feel you're doing it all alone. staying up late to get a call but yet it ends in just a minute. maybe it became a habit. the aniticipation wears down, its just another ordinary task on a busy schedule.
Dialled, "hello, (silence) goodbye. " or maybe add another line to make sure it doesnt sound too quick. why not? you wouldnt feel too guilty right? oh and for my part, add the i'm-really-fine-with-it voice.
"goodnight, sweet dreams" i sure hope.
the phone ended, place the mask down, and soak in that puddle of water.
where does understanding ever brings you to?
no where. oh maybe just a few block away everyday, and soon you'll find me in iceland.
now, do a mental check.
Be understanding. how can i forget?
